Stuck somewhere between a rock and a hard place.

This sounds really dumb, but I’m constantly complaining about my weight.  Not so much anymore, but I still do from time to time.  In the beginning of the year, I decided I would quit complaining about it and join a gym.  So I went to xsport for a couple of months and then I couldn’t afford it and at that point it was rugby season again so I was ok to let the gym go.  When I came back from Yellowstone, people mentioned I looked like I had lost weight and I could feel it by the way some of my clothes fit, but the number on the scale was the same.  I know muscle weighs more than fat, but I don’t care…I mean I do but, I really just want the number on the scale to be smaller.  So I decided last night that starting today…I’m going to start calorie counting.  I always promised myself I wouldn’t let myself come to this, but what could a little more moderation hurt?  I’m allowing myself 1300 calories a day.  That seems to be a reasonable intake.  I weighed myself this morning, I won’t do it again until Friday.  I hope to see some decent results. And yes, I know that eating healthy isn’t the only step to losing weight.  There will be physical activity added into there as well.  I still have some research to do, but for right now, this is how I will start.  Now…how many calories are in an orange?…lol

I will do this…I CAN do this. =]

Haha, you think you’re real funny don’t you.  Trying to “lock me out” by crossing out the doorway with duck tape and over my bed.  That’s not funny.  So fucking dumb.  I’m getting a cold from working so much but I have 6 days left here.  I’ll be home in 16 days.  I’m ready to get out of here and just skip staying with my uncle almost.  I don’t know.  Fuck dumb people dude.  I don’t know.  Other than this recent annoyance, I really do like it out here.  I’m just getting worked so much.  I have been from the start.  I’m just burnt out to say the least I suppose.    I’ve been to Moose Falls and went swimming, that was a good time, except it was already cold in the middle of August.  I went to old Faithful one day, stayed just long enough to see the Geyser erupt.  I’ve been to Bozeman on a few occasions.  Dave’s Sushi there is pretty delicious and it’s a cute little place, that’s for sure.  Taco Bus in West Yellowstone is pretty tasty too.  I told Cassie that the summer after she graduates we’re coming back here to work another summer.  She needs to see this and like me, if she doesn’t come out here to work, she’ll probably never come out here and see this.  I don’t really remember where else I was going to go with this.  It’s just another night in the lobby here in Grant Village.  I guess I’ll end this random blob of thought here.

Tuesday, August 9^th, 2011

After working about 38-40 hours between last Wednesday and last night, I feel like I deserve my weekend.  Unfortunately I didn’t really have much of anything to do.  A couple of my friends that had today off went to Bozeman and I wasn’t going to ask to go along.  My roommate normally would have had today off but she worked so I didn’t have anyone to go hiking with.  Instead I decided to go on a bit of a walk by myself.  I wish I could have gotten myself lost like I had hoped but according to a couple of people, you can’t get lost in Grant.  It was worth a shot.  I got some beautiful pictures and I think I may have found the perfect spot.  It’s a nice little rock on the shore of a lake and you can see the mountains in the distance.  Breathtaking in my opinion.  I signed up to go on a hike next Tuesday.  I’m excited for this.

Saturday, August 6^th, 2011

Why?!  Why why why why why???????!  UGHH!   I’m ok.  I guess.  Crap!  Let’s start from the beginning…

Yellowstone is beautiful, at least the very little bit of it that I have seen so far.  I saw so many elk the first day I was here.  They’re such pretty animals.  My roommate is a nice girl.  But some people here are just really fucking dumb.  I have a very low tolerance for one of my coworkers but whatever right?  No one can always be happy with everything about their job.  I wash dishes for god’s sake.  I’ve made quite a few friends but now I spend my next few days on my own.  The roommate and a couple other people left for Utah today so I have time and space to myself but I know I’m gonna go stir crazy here..

There’s a couple people though that are suddenly getting mad at me because I supposedly failed to mention certain things which I think is incredible dumb b/c  they never asked.  If they asked I would