Stuck somewhere between a rock and a hard place.

I meant to write this yesterday but just kept getting too off track.  I couldn’t focus one bit.  18 years ago yesterday, a tall, funny, friendly, beautiful, mocha-skinned boy was given life.  I never really did get the chance to know him fully enough to know a whole hell of a lot about his life, or him for that matter; but I do know that he was a big brother to everyone.  Everyone loved him and he loved everyone in return.  However, 1 month and 25 days ago, this humorous and loving young man took his own life.  Not only I, but many many others were hurt by this.  Family, friends, and classmates were also struck by this.  It was quite a blow to many and we think about him everyday.  At least, I know I do.  I glance at his facebook every couple of days and see the comments people leave him and I wish he could see them.  I wish he could know how we all feel about what he did and how the world seems so much darker without him, so much crueler.  We all miss him and we all want him back.

We miss you Benjamin Vincent Christian Tran.
May you dance with angels and rest in peace.
May 27th, 1991 - April 3rd, 2009