Stuck somewhere between a rock and a hard place.

I don’t know what was going through my head yesterday, I couldn’t focus.  Last weekend we got into a fight.  He was bitter because I was going to concerts at Riverfest.  Bitter because he’s in Wyoming and I’m still here.  Because I definitely want to be here…FUCK NO!  He thinks I’m glad I’m still at home.  I wanted to leave weeks ago when I was supposed to…even that wasn’t soon enough for my liking.

“You’re at home with your friends and family, having fun, and I’m stuck out here 1000 miles away with no one but my shitty roommates.  I just want my friends and family and you.”
“Do you think I planned it like this?  Do you think I wanted to brake my collar bone so I couldn’t leave?  Let me just un-brake my collar bone for you.  I’m just doing what I would have normally done with my summer and trying to make the best of it.”

Thankfully we’re over this argument, but unfortunately we still aren’t far from it…and when I say I’m out with someone doing something he says “Don’t do anything, please..” and then comes “Now you’re mad at me, aren’t you?”  The only thing that makes me go from being in a completely fine mood to entirely furious is the words “You’re mad at me.”  Well if you’d like me to be mad at you I certainly can be now, thanks JACKASS.

I’m kind of glad he hopefully won’t ever see this.  There’s a reason that when I say something about blogging and people ask for the link I really don’t like giving it to them.  If you want that insight you have to earn it.  Search for my blog if you want to know the catastrophes within.  I was kind of ok for a while, but I think I’m breaking again..

Besides the fact that I wasn’t able to for so long, I really want to clean my room…But I’ve just been so unmotivated lately..But I really should considering I have roughly a month again before I leave.  Fuck, why can’t life be easy?

/end.rant.